To all u people and friends from all over the world, who ever that is reading this article like story of mine, I would like to thank all of you for spending time, understanding and appreciating me and my life, thanks for your kindness. I hope you people would not follow my FALSE steps in life and would only follow what I did RIGHT as ur guidance or maybe be an advice to you, thanks again!

Ok how should I, JLHY begin this life story of mine? I was born on November 5^{th, 1981 in Government Hospital (GH) of Penang Island. For some reasons, how come a pure Chinese have yellowish or blond hair, it’s weird, wanna see my 1 year old photo?? It’s privacy here, until I scan it. I was hold by my grandma, father’s friend, my mum and other people, maybe I was too young and won’t know much that time.}

Ok let’s start with when I was 2 yrs old, my mum (Shirley Khor Meng Loo) and dad (Zuber Lam San Chung) has divorced (separated) through a lawyer firm, signing through the black and white paper, then my dad won the fighting of the child named Lam Han Yeow. Here, then I live with my dad all my life. At this very age of mine, I was sent to a Nursery Home, where I was being taken care by people, cause my dad has to work and no mother or anyone to look after me while he is on duty for work. At few months later, my dad decided to find a better babysitter or care taker to take good care of me, since he heard a lot of complains from the nursery home that im currently stay-in.

From all the rumours that he has heard that there is one good babysitter named Goy Phaik Eng (but I used to call her mamak that means mum or mama something like that I named through my livings with her since 2-3 yrs old). Mamak or Aunty Toh (cause her husband is Toh Chooi Wan, so we normally have to use her husband surname to greet her) has 2 daughters and one son. Her eldest son named Toh Chin Lee, middle daughter named Toh Ai Nee and the youngest daughter named Toh Ai Ling. The 3 of them is much more older than me since they were all in secondary school when I was only at the age 3-4.

Then later stage, a girl who is one year older than me, moves in to live with the Toh family and me. Her named is Wong Sui Kuin. We grew up together in the same Kindergarten (for one year when I was at the age of 5 and she is 6). It was a Chinese kindergarten as my dad first decided to put me in there. This old kindergarten is use to be situated near north and opposite another row of houses from where I’m staying right now). It’s also 4-5 minutes walk only from the Toh Family’s house.

While I was in that Chinese kindergarten, I disagree at first myself to be there, although Sui Kuin (I called her Chen Chen- I dunno why thought it has no meaning but that’s what I called her since I was 4) was there with me in the same kindergarten. I never like Chinese words & speaking, cause while I was young, I’m only being educated by movies like Sesame Street & others cartoons like Voltron, Care Bears, Transformers, Thunder Cats, Hee-Man and all these non-sense. But my dad was Chinese educated. Everyday suring classes in this kindergarten, I used to get punish from many teachers, as I never seem to cooperate with them in learning session, for example, even the teacher ask me to speak up Ren means human in Chinese language, I never want to speak either, though I was told to speak up about 5-10 times, as stubborn as I was, the teacher will beat me up until she couldn’t stand the temperature, she would ask me to stand outside the kindergarten that is under the hot sun. As Sui Kuin sees me getting punish. After the kindergarten lesson hours, she told Aunty Toh that I getting punished. Aunty Toh reported that to my father when, he pick me up every weekend on Saturday night after his half day working hours on Saturday, as he will always place me back there on every Sunday night cause I’ll be having school on the following day. So as Sui Kuin, but she was taken back to her home every Friday since her mum and dad only having 5 days work as a teacher in a University.

After a year in that Chinese Kindergarten& after the discussion between my dad and Aunty Toh, then the 2 of them decided to put me at another kindergarten which is located right inside a church and I feel so thankful that it’s an English educated one, since is on the Holy Spirit church that is situated at the few back rows of where im staying right now. The church it’s quite near to that Yu Chai Chinese Kindergarten and my house. On the first week of my studies there, I was in love with a girl, she is very pretty and most or many guys there would like to approach her and trying to get close to her by talking to her, as for a shy guy like me in the same class, I would be very jealous and angry, so I find go find trouble with those 3-4 guys during break time, we fought and getting caught by teachers, as 3 of them got beat up by me. I like martial arts since I was very young age. I even try to get close to that girl but she ignore me and don’t want to talk to me. Sui Kuin is one year older than me, so she is now 7 and was already in primary that’s Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Sri Inai. It’s a private school, it’s very expensive fees and it’s located at the town or city area that is very far away from our residing areas, where most foreigners or rich people would send their child to such school at very young age, as they would learn powerful English Language even at Standard 1 (Year 1), they already studies Singaporean English. Sui Kuin parents are rich but they are very stingy people, unlike my dad, Uncle & Aunty Toh, who is poor but still helpful when it comes to solving financial problems, food and others. I’m only 6 and alone stuck in kindergarten.

At my age at 7, I begin my turn at the primary called Sekolah Rendah Kebangsaan Bukit Gelugor, Year 1988, that is a government primary and it only takes 10-15 minutes drive to reach there from where I am now. After school everyday, Sui Kuin will always play with me, talk with me about her daily schoolwork, cartoons, foods and drinks, her likes and dislikes. She will always teach me about scientific things like pyramid, UFO, animals, mysteries, ghost ever since I was 7 till 9 yrs old, so I‘m kinda lucky guy, that I slept at the bottom of double-decker bed, where she is at the upper part of it, every night during our stays in Aunty Toh place. There was one day I finally tell her that I’m interested in a girl in my class, so Sui Kuin teach me to write a love letter and asking me to pass this letter to that girl named Chai Han Ling, who is one of the most prettiest girl in my class. When I arrive school, I dare not pass down but just to ask my classmate to pass down that letter to her since I’m only 7. So, no one knows it was a formal letter than it’s actually a love letter, after she receive the letter, on the spot she passed to the teacher for the period of subject, and the teacher take me to see the headmaster of the school, and my dad this time was shocked his 7 year old boy already knows how to fall in love with a girl. It’s Oh my gosh! A sentimental boy, I’m also writing a letter that a girl supposed to write to a guy, instead of a guy (me) writing to a girl, the world has turn, maybe it’s already turn since I was at this age. As not even my dad, Aunty Toh or Sui Kuin knows that the reason I fought with a guy since kindergarten at the church was because of love, as you see, if I never tell ONLY THIS, I’m sure no even anyone knows my 1% of secret, they thought it was just a normal fight in kindergarten and I started love since primary year 1, but everyone I know since I was born was wrong.

At my age of 10 at 1991, Sui Kuin brought over her sister to stay with us in Aunty Toh’s place, as her sister is only Standard 1 (Year 1 at the age of 7) that time as I’m already in Standard 4 (Year 4 and already 10 yrs old) and Sui Kuin is Standard 5 at 11yrs old. Her sister studied in a Chinese Primary School and was a very dumb person, cause I dunno why that most Chinese educated has different thinking and behaviour than us who are the English educated people. 3 of us where in different Primary School. So, at this very age of mine, my dad finally get an engagement with a lady named Goh Siew Im and she has finally become my step-mum. This year at 1991, I’m finally start my morning session fro school and finally move to a new class and again fell in love with a girl name Ho Khai Ling. I’m again doing the same thing, sending letters and getting the same punishment seeing headmaster, as the whole class laugh as usual. As I grow up, I started to sing perfectly in every songs, cause I love singing ever since I was 5. furthermore, I got a good memory, so I could memorize every single songs. At this time, im only interested in New Kids On The Block (NKOTB), but at that time, my dad likes Glenn Medeiros, Richard Marx, Madonna, Lobo, Tommy Page, Air Supply, Carpenters and others. But my dad’s favourite band was Bee Gees, as he like Barry Gibb. Part of my music influence comes from my dad, as he always go to music shops and buy me my favourite cassette songs, since that time doesn’t have CD yet, in our country back in this year.

Later stage, Aunty Toh’s nephew named Goy Min Tat comes to visit him everyday, as he is already in Form 3 during that time in Secondary School (Year 3 in secondary) called Bukit Mertajam High School, located to where Min Tat lives, where we have to travel across the bridge from Penang Island to it’s mainland which is a quite outskirt place, 1 hour and 30minutes to 2 hours only able to reach his place. Min Tat is at the age 15 and was a very keen person and low self-esteem person. He is the smartest guy among all the Goy’s family of Aunty Toh as he will always achieve 90%-100% of his studies, with most A’s or Distinction for his examination. During his holidays, he will mostly come over to Aunty Toh’s place, cause Aunty Toh was a very kind person, like Min Tat says unlike his mum. Most people would treat Aunty Toh with respect, because of her kind advice given to people to improve their morality and good behaviour. She will always teach us to greet people in the morning (Good Morning), going to sleep (Good Night), Good Evening, greeting ur teachers and others with respect, each with respect (how to handle your fork and spoon politely including chopsticks). Walk politely without any footsteps noise unlike some people who think they have big-foot, big shoes or slut (like we seen these days on any street, isn’t that sick?). Not just that, we learn a lot that I myself unable to explain to anyone, this is already taught ever since we are young.

Min Tat and Sui Kuin, nearly have intelligence in loving scientific things, we always watch movies together, shopping together. I agree that I was a tame person at those days and always cry if got scolded. I’m not a wild person like these days. I’m still trying to get back to these days, not just everything in future is good to us, sometimes, even the pass is more important to us and more likely to be lovely than these days. Min Tat will always leave after his holidays taking bus back to his hometown for schooling days and stay with his family, where his dad is Aunty Toh’s younger brother, that’s why he carry the surname Goy. During our schooldays as well, we study quietly every night with highly discipline, as if anyone who makes noise during studies will get punishment from Aunty Toh, she will always leave the table with Chilies, to make sure no one make noise or any non-sense during studies, or she will rub the Chilly to either one who makes talks a lot. Heavier punishment will be that we are able to take our dinner after we finish the of homework based on Uncle Toh’s requirement (Aunty Toh doesn’t knows how to read this English Or Malay language that well since she is Chinese educated but her husband is English educated will take over sometimes), or we will get canning by Rattan on the hand. Sleep time we will always take a glass of milk that gives us calcium before we go to sleep and some biscuits, noodles or anything else, sometimes. That’s why I got strong bones and backbones. An example for milk, Auny Toh doesn’t agree with either 2 of our parents to buy in branded fresh milk that has preservatives, she will always order from an Indian milk seller (riding motorbike selling milk), cause that’s the truly fresh milk from the cow, unlike those produced from factories that’s already remixing the milk solution.

After Sui Kuin finishes her Standard 6 in Sri Inai primary school, then she and her sister was no more being taken care by Aunty Toh, cause her parents is migrating to United States for some business. So, at the beginning of Standard 6 (Year 6) of my primary days, Year 1992-1993, I’m all alone staying in that upper room every night, missing the 2 of them, as I will always cry, I’m a timid boy, being taken good care from Aunty Toh, being educated from Sui Kuin, being pampered by my father buying all the toys that I needed, that I could fill up 5 cupboards with all my toys, those expensive toys that will cost about RM150-RM250 (converting to Pesos will be about 1500 Pesos-2500 Pesos, converting to Australian money will be $75Aussie-$125Aussie) just for ONE stupid Transformer robot toy. Every weekend, I will get new toys. My dad will always take me to the cinema, arcade center for me to play Street Fighter and some plane fighting game. Although he doesn’t cares much about me, or worried that my morality might drop of being in those smoky places in arcade center. So my dad will always teach me about gangsterism things and how to solve such problems in school before I face the unforeseen situation. He is the one who makes influence me in seeing business people and predicting what kind of people that he or she might be after being with them. Not all business people that wear nice clothing, drive big cars with big house are happy a person, some people are busy until they don’t have time for their own family and friends, so what’s the point being in a high position for business for some people? Another important one my dad taught me, being famous doesn’t mean is good, some famous people, like idol and actors, actress, singer or those one in a million, people will always disturbed you, sometimes they can’t even eat a meal down the street, cause those people will published them to the media or newspapers, so isn’t being famous is very disadvantage? Being to rich, easily get robbed, being too poor will easily being look down, for me, I prefer to be average in everything, including my dressing, my studies, I eat food in the street to the cheapest and to the most expensive meal also like those 5 starts people take, for me, I’m normal that’s why I been to everything.

As I turn 12 yrs old at 1993, I’m finally at the first year in secondary school at Sekolah Menengah Hamid Khan. This secondary or high school that I’m in is a famous for it’s sport game known as Volley Ball, that our high school holds a Penang state championship for (10 consecutives year) among all high schools. I was the worst trouble-maker in my class cause I got 13 black records not more than a week, I easily pick up fights, I would simply got punch people’s balls and kick people off (since I’m quite good in fighting and martial arts those days, when I still have flexible bones) during my first year in High School. Furthermore, I use to be bullied by people for 6 years in my primary school, since people think I’m a timid guy and I behave like a small girl, since I only mix with mostly Sui Kuin and Min Tat (during his holidays) only I finally got a chance to stay with my dad as much I could rather than with Aunty Toh, cause I prefer my dad to pampered me than rather than Aunty Toh. Since my dad never take good care of me, as he and my step-mum has to work, that’s why there’s no one to look after me every morning before I attend my after noon school, so every morning before going to school, I will invite friends all over to my house to play my Super Nitendo 16-bit game and my SEGA 16-bit game that it’s one among most expensive video game that time at 1994. Sometimes we even watch x-rated movies, porn and sex films. As I know where my dad keep in the drawer nearby the hall television, as I smart to hide things when I was very young, that’s why no one knows my good and bad secret till today. Hey, if I never tell all these, no one will know.

At the age of 13, I finally receive my first stepbrother named Lam Han Min at 1995 (you could say he was the most smartest brother I ever had, I could sense his Smartness & Intelligence ever since these very day), and for me in year 2 of high school, I finally caught an interest in a girl named Lee Hui Ming. She is just started high school at year 1 as I’m in year 2. Many people told me that this girl was a fierce one and hate guys. Sweat (swt!). I always will skip classes or if the subject for that current period is not important, I would definitely leave the class for few minutes or, get an excused to go the toilet and just hide behind the class just to open up the opportunity for myself to at least have a look at her below my class or just a glance through her would brightens my day off. This is also the year that I started joining basketball club for the school as a new player, we were train under one of the best captain named Lim Soon Aun, he was a professional sportsman in school, for not only basketball, but also a good runner, volleyball player and others. The basketball coach in our school is very lazy and will only count on the captain’s advisory and instructions, since basketball was the only infamous sports in our school with poor ranking in the entire Penang state. Soon Aun will always instruct us the training every Saturday morning and will ask us to run 10 rounds outside the fences of the school, that means run over the whole school, do pumping, frog jumps and others basketball trainings. Well, dad's sister named Aunt Catherine who was married to Uncle Barry a British Caucasian (even before i was born), who lives in in between Manchester and Liverpool of United Kingdom. They came over to Malaysia-Penang Island to visit us. They only come to visit us like 3-5 years once. They reside in a Hotel called Casuarina. During our Buffet Dinner in Casuarina Hotel, Uncle Barry told us that he likes Football means American Football, he also likes Rugby. I secretly kept the plastic sppon of carvings of Casuarina, bring back home as a souvenier of remembering Uncle Barry and Aunt Catherine, my best aunt and uncle i ever met in life.I remembered i sang the song Right Here Waiting-Richard Marx, during their stays in Penang Island and also after they've returned to United Kingdom. Since Uncle Barry likes that song of Richard Marx, but my Aunt Catherine recommended me the pop group called Take That, that was very famous in United Kingdom that time, But at my age, im not a music freak, if the So after they have gond back to United Kingdom, there was one day, i went to the music shop and bought Take That-Greatest Hits album. I like Back For Good & Never Forget, I liked Gary Barlow and Mark Owen. 

At the age of 14 at 1995, Form 3 (Year 3), is the year I met a guy named Mark Edward and Loh Kean Boon, my 2 closest friend, they were my classmates too, we 3 always sit at the back column of the class, that we r in different rows. Kean Boon is a pure Chinese but Mark, his dad is an Indian but mother Chinese, or u can called it a mixed race or Chindian (means CHINese+INDIAN). Kean Boon is a Buddhist and Mark is a Catholic Christian. We always mix around during recess time, sitting on the same canteen bench and eat together. We will play basketball after school hours everyday, spending 1-2 hours under the hot sun, we don’t mind even we miss the school bus that, especially me and Mark will walk back together everyday after school. In basketball for this year, we have a new captain for our year 3 named Andy Kow Shi Boon. This captain is one of the most lame and bad-temper captain compare to Soon Aun, since it’s already Soon Aun’s final school year at Year 5, so he has to vote for a new captain. Andy was picked as captain because he was a rich guy and with fancy clothings, that’s why many noobs tries to get close to him for his fancy stuff. It’s also the time, I leave school basketball and start finding other places that provides better training and sportsmanship (not only winning is everything). I found a Club at the town area call CRC (Chinese Recreation Club), I trained my basketball there every Saturday and Sunday. Many old fellows and professional Penang State players there. For every day after school, I will spent most of the time playing basketball with other school students like Georgetown High School, Teknik High School, Chung Hwa high School and others. My studies comes out with bad reputation for 3 consecutive year, cause I never study but just hanging around, making fool and basketball, enjoying life. Sometimes, go cycling with Marky (Mark) with my mountain bike. But I finally listen to Mark and Kean Boon’s advised that I should leave that girl Hui Ming as I might find another, so Mark friend’s who lives with him at the same apartment where is located 5 minutes walk to north from my house, they introduced me a girl name Yeap Fan Ling, but this Chinese Educated girl it’s so had to impress her cause we have different thinking, communication, doing things, expectations and different dreams. That time I was a Michael Learn To Rock freak and so as for 911 and Backstreet Boys. I used to sing for Fang Ling, Michael Learn To Rock-That’s Why You Go Away & Fool’s Garden-Lemon Tree, 911-The Day We Find Love & Don’t Make Me Wait, I sang for a girl I knew from Galaxie magazine, after meeting up, things doesn’t goes well. But Mark and I like to sing The Earth, The Sun, The Rain by Color Me Badd and Anything by 3T (Michael Jackson’s nephew). Kean Boon, likes Firehouse-I Live My Life For You. I also like Forever by Damage on that time.

At age of 15 at 1996, Form 4 (Year 4), I finally choose to be in Science Stream, though my results was very poor after the Year 3 government exams, with only A in English but other subjects with pass and merits only. Mark was put in Science 1 and I’m in Science 2 cause the teachers wanna spilt us both, since they know that we are close friends. But Kean Boon, intended to be in Arts Stream, since he has no confident enough in science thing. That’s how we 3 were spilt up. I finally met my new classmates, Loke Chee Keong, Darrel Lim, Lagnesh, Sim Lim Beng and others. But me and Mark still meet up together since we live close together, same science class, we always talk about Kean Boon wondering how he is, since he live far from us and in different streams. As time goes by our relationship with Kean Boon spilt up and he met new friends, since Kean Boon was not that open-minded person cause he was a Chinese Educated person since primary no like me and Mark. But then, I don’t discriminate him, just that you can also say Kean Boon was one of the most friendliest Chinese educated person you ever met, his parents sell Chicken Rice at the coffee shop (restaurant) that’s is only opposite our high school, we would normally go there and eat. But as time goes by again, we seldom goes there till we forgotten it, since we are more likely to have life in town areas, hanging around in shopping complex, with trendy clothes, footwear and stuff, playing arcade games like Daytona racing, Manxx TT superbike. First Mark was the best Manxx TT superbike game player, but as time goes by, I’m over better than him, I could even stand up and ride the bike with even one hand, I could get first position for the 2 bike courses, have u seen that guy??? It’s not me, could I still do that today? I haven’t go to Komtar, One-Stop Shopping complex. Me and Mark would sometimes hang around many places of McDonalds and read books, cause got air-conditioning, hang out together will 12am-2am even schooldays, just fun being together, sometimes I walk back home from his apartment place, and sometimes he goes home from my house. We are like blood brothers. We both got many friends but we seldom mix with them. My House?? Actually, we have shifted to a place quite near to the hillside of this Green Lane area. Where I fell in love with a girl, she was my neighbour, she is also a Chinese Educated person, she was also in Year 4 in her high school, but she is one year older than me, since Chinese educated students all have to go to Remove Year before Year 1 of High School. you can say that they always wasted one year of studies in Remove Year. Her name is Yeoh Gar Fuee, but her friends mostly called her Garfield since her name is Gar Fuee. She likes music too. She told me she likes Boyzone and her favourite idol is Ronan Keating. After trying to get close to this girl next door, I make myself a boyzone fan, and in such a coincident, I fell in love with the band Boyzone. Although I already heard of Boyzone 1st single Love Me For A Reason, since I was 13. So, I first bought the album A Different Beat. My favourite songs are Don’t Stop Looking For Love, Ben, Isn’t It A Wonder, A Picture Of You, A Different Beat, Heaven Knows. But I didn’t impress the next door. As she already seeing someone and not ready since she wants to further her studies. She is not sure about true love or even a temporary one. Later, Boyzone comes up with their final album titled Where We Belong and the news & rumours that Ronan Keating might be going Solo. I bought that album Where We Belong-Boyzone on my B-Day as I turn 16, as I pray each nite singing Boyzone songs before going to sleep making a true spiritual out from music. I made No Matter What of Boyzone as my life song. I even expanded my music dedication to everyone after I manage to buy their first album on Said And Done-with the hit single Love Me For A Reason. I dedicate 95% of Boyzone songs, to my friends, parents and all past, present and future lovers. Where each songs are dedicated to one person with a reason and experience or lesson I’ve been with that particular person. A band of Boyzone has finally filled my life to the entire world. I’m also training hard on my basketball as I trained myself to play after school hours, noon and night, where I traveled to different places to play basketball.

During our 1-2 months School holidays before starting up for our Final Year, Me, Mark & his friends went to Pizza Hut to work, that’s was my ever first job in life and so as Mark. So we both are Kitchen Helper and such a coincidence, we both are given the same shift for work. As I used to follow Mark’s motorcycle to work. We both are quite good Kitchen Helpers, since we are shy to be in the servicing environment and meeting people. I was the Pizza maker and Mark is the only desert, soup, pastries and others. I remembered that I manage to make 370 Pizzas for 5 hours during Christmas Day.

At the age of 16 at Year1997, Form 5 (Year 5), I’m at the Final Year of my High School or Secondary School. As we all will be having our Government Exam on November, where the good grades might be able to further their studies to Form 6 in other high schools, since out high school is only till Year 5, for students who achieve average grades and poor grades, will have the chance to go to college, depending on their parents. This year, I still flunk my studies and so as Mark, as we know we will not be able to catch up the science subjects syllabus for Physics, Chemistry and Biology. Me?? I’m still courting the next door like for a month as my grandma past away because of cancer on her kidney, where no further surgery could help her, her named is Ho Cheang Fong, my dad’ mum and she is one of my greatest grandma in life although he likes my cousin Lam Han Kee more than me, as Han Kee lives with her at the pawnshop own by my Grandpa Lam Kuan Yew, my dad’s dad, who was once rich guy. But then he died ever since my dad was only 15. Han Kee’s father and my dad are the only 2 brothers holding the surname of Lam (for the Lam family), Han Kee’s father is older than my dad. Ever since young, his dad prefer to take care the pawnshop that belongs to my grandpa, but my dad refuses to work in such environment, so he used to leave everyone and walk independently alone his life. Me and my dad use to visit my grandma and Aunty Irene every Sunday morning and dad will take me to eat Curry Mee at the bridge located at the north side from grandma’s place will take 8-10 minutes walk to reach. 

I dedicated You Flew Away-Boyzone to my grandma, as she really flew away from me, and many reasons in that song I made I that way, as earlier I dedicated Father & Son-Boyzone to my dad, A Different Beat-Boyzone to the world, Isn’t It A Wonder-Boyzone to my neighbourhood, All That I Need-Boyzone to my neighbour and many more to be listed here. When my grandma past away, as far as Chinese people will always keeps something important to be pass down to their children or grandchildren after they are going to leave this world. So she pass down 2 items to me as my cousin only receives one item, that I don’t know either, it’s the last word between me and my grandma and so as my cousin and my grandma, before she goes off this world. I receive a gold necklace chain carved in Chinese word of Yeow. Why is it Yeow only?? Written on necklace?? For Chinese Yeow means bright a name given to me since I was born with lack of brightness based on the Taoism believes, that metal, wood, fire, water and other elements. Yeow means bright in Chinese, but am I forever bright? Why my cousin has the name Han?? Like Lam Han Yeow and Lam Han Kee?? Han is grandchildren name, just like my step-brother Lam Han Min, as for my dad is Lam San Chung and Han Kee’s dad is Lam San Cheong.

The last word from my grandma was that she ask my to study before she past away, but according to my dad’s sister who lives with my grandma all her life who as not married, or widowed, her name is Lam Ooi Har. She told me that my grandma actually likes me more than my cousin since all the while she felt wrong to be one-sided to my cousin even we both fight a lot since we were young for toys and video games. I was a good fighter since I used to fight a lot since primary school. But my cousin likes to tease people a lot. But one thing my grandma later discover is that I better in studies than my cousin like for 15% only. Then she accepts me to be his best grandson, as my cousin always go clubbing, snookers and all non-sense things. As I kept my promise to MY GRANDMA ‘I’ll Study Hard, I PROMISE’.

After we've taken our last goverment exam paper, the last day, so it's a holiday already for the coming weeks for about 3 months holiday before we are suppose to go back to school again to collect out results for the exam. So during our 3 months of holiday, me and Mark first go to Pizza Hut to apply for the job again after we've left the job before the starting off our Final Year of high school. At this time during our application, we received the post of Senior kitchen Helper as for me and Mark. We both only work there for like a month, as Mark ahas already interested in another job that's also F&B (Food & Beverage), thats called Coffee Hut, serving customers with mainly coffee such as latte, cappucino, mocha and etc, deserts, western delights and others. Mark is the one who moved in and work in Coffee Hut as i'm still in Pizza Hut for about a week before applying for Coffee Hut. While Mark was was working there, he gets to know a guy named Justin Yee Yin Seng, his dad is a Chinese and his mum is a Caucasian-British (UK), basically we called it Eurasian. Justin also has a older twin-brother named Jason Yee. Well, they both are from Saint Xavier's High School. They both are born on the 24th November 1981.

During my first day in Coffee Hut, Mark is the one who introduced Justin to me, but Jason was not working in Coffee Hut cause his twin-brother doesn't communicate well with him, so they both are like fighting with each other, like to be opposite of each other ever since they we very young, they like to fight, i mean twins as mostly like that.

After i told Justin about my interests on singing and music, he was suprised that we both share the same interests. Sometimes when we are free, during our break time for work, we ould sit down and have chats. Justin sing and to my opinion, he sings very wrongly and badly, cause that time i always thought i sing correctly and better than him. I like to immitate Stephen Gately's of Boyzone that has supreb nice voice. But Justin told me i'm wrong in singing as it's not following your own notes, like suddenly, u just hang to someone else's note.

After Me, Mark & Justin have been working in Coffe Hut for 2 weeks, we are not very pleased by one of the share holders of the shop, Justin was very daring and just resigned from the job, eventhough he was not in the wrong position, instead some workers there are not friendly. 2 days later, me and Mark resisgned too, as Justin were suprised asking why we both are are following him, as then we 3 later were very close friends. We 3 dropped by Orange Cafe, where this shopped we served customers with Wine, Dining food and etc. We 3 are entitled to different shift. We are spiltted from our shift worked there. So, during our off-days, we 3 will always go out together, or sometimes me and Justin only, and sometimes with Mark only, or vice-versa. When we are free, we use to sing together, going out for movies, play arcade games together. Mostly we go to Justin's house that is situated near the Hillside with Beach at the Tanjung Bungah area.

Justin's mum who is a British is a very nice person and would always gives us advices and ideas for doing something, rather than Justin's dad always discriminating Mark's race, cause Mark is a Chindian (mother-Chinese & father-Indian), as Justin's dad hated Indian very much, especially people who have dark skinned. Isn't Justin's dad very racists kind of people? That's why Justin doesn't even like his own dad, so as his twin-brother Jason. They both doesn't like their dad much. But to my thinking and Mark's thinking is that, Justin's mum is a Caucasian, we always know that Caucasian people way of thinking, ideas, believes and others are always different from Asian people.

Justin's favourite group was the Backstreet Boys, and his ideal idol of the group is Nick Carter, as i was about to get a conflict with Justin , since i once like nick Carter also when im only 13. But then, after knowing Justin through his mum. His mum told us that Justin was the Second Best Singer in his high school choir of Saint Xavier's, and also the Top Singer for his church choir. his mum told me that Justin has been singing Gospel Christian music for like 3 years ever since he was very young, where he also plays Piano and trained his own voice.

Mark already knows that Justin is a very good singer, after beeing listening to Justin's singing voice a few times. Even Mark, himself haven't seen such good singer at his Church of Holy Spirit. Justin teaches me and Mark about voices in singing, that Mark voice is just reaches the lowest Tenor, as for me, I'm a Bass singer, but i'm more amazing than Mark, cause my voice is sweet, so we nearly form out a singing group out of it, but we haven't know what the future might holds for us after collecting our results for the goverment test.

On March 1999, finally all student of my high school, S.M.K. Hamid Khan, were ready to collect their results for the government tests, everyone was nervous, some are shivering for me, Mark, Jo Aun and Kean Boon, but for some are very confidence since they study hard, unlike us. For Mark, he got the last grade that’s Grade 3, Jo Aun got Grade 1, Kean Boon got Grade 2, as I got the worst of all that’s failure with no certificate called S.A.P. on the cert I receive. I didn’t talk much on the journey home with Mark and Jon Aun on Jo Aun’s car. As I reach home, my dad scolded me and step-mum felt disappointed with me. I myself walk up to my room and I don’t know how to even tell my neighbour next door about my results. Worst of all, I disappointed my grandma, as I dunno how she will feel is she sees this if she is still alive. She might be very disappointed to trust me, and my promises. I was down on my knees and crying for like 3-4 hours without moving my knees. As I whispered ‘I Have Disappointed You, Grandma, I Have Broken My Promises, and Am I A Failure Child?’. I felt so hopeless, after my tears are falling down my face, are all dried up. As I don’t know what kind of future will hold for me. So i felt so hopeless for the time being. My cousin Han Kee too failed his goverment exam but he and his parents doen't mind much but just to suggest to put him to college.

A week later after that, my dad decided to take me and my cousin Han Kee to this Penang Skills Development Centre (PSDC), to apply for a course there. When we arrived PSDC, it was a Semi-Goverment some sort like Institute + College look a like, where is being built up by over 30-40 membership companies such as Intel, Siemens, Komag, Motorola, NEC, Agilent and other group of companies. My dad first take me to apply for the machinist course since my results were very poor an unable to apply for any other course in PSDC besides the machinist and injection moulding course. My cousin always tries to be smart as he only stick to his Chinese educated mind and think that he just want the Precision Moulding course. Asi walked a bit further up, i picked up the catalog and glance through the Engineering course and it's requirement. The requirements for Electrical & Electronics Engineering course was the highest and followed by Mechanical & Mechatronic Engineering course and lastly, Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering course. These 3 Engineering courses are the hardest course of PSDC compare to IT (the Computer Engineering course) and the machining courses. These Engineering course are (UK) 3rd most hardest course of Engineering based on the marking criteria's. It's certified under BTEC for those 3 Higher National Diploma holders.

I then realized that there is a minimum requirements for Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering course, that only modern maths subject & addtional maths subjects grades is needed to be viewed for the requirements of this course. So, my cousin later agrees and then we both apply for this course. 2 weeks later, we were informed to come for the course briefing before starting up our first semester. So, we both are finally in for BTEC Higher National Diploma in Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering (in short forms it's-BTEC HND (Mech & Mfg Engineering). It's a 3 years course with 6 semesters all together. Each year consists of 2 semesters. After each semesters, we are entitled a week break to a 2 weeks break before the following semester starts). First Year of the course is called Foundation Year. Second Year of the course is called Higher National Cetificate Year (HNC Year) and the Final Third Year of the course is Higher National Diploma Year (HND Year).

Our first day of course starts at May 1999, where me and my cousin where in the same class for Mechanical & Manufacturing, where other are in Mechanical & Mechatronics and also the Electrical & Electronics class are spilt into Electrical & Electronics A class and Electrical & Electronics B class, since too many students applying for that course, as they also trying to be fair for maintaining the balance for 2 Electrical classes and 2 Mechanical classes. Something like that. My class consists of 35 students including my cousin and me. But overall of the 4 classes will results up to 290 students.

Well, after i manage to be in this course, i stil regret about my past failure of the results and my promised to my grandma. So in this course, it's no more goverment school, as my parents will have to pay for each semester's of the 3 years course. One night before the course starts on the first day, i wanna be reborn and restart my studies all over again. Maybe my promises to my grandma has ended and make her disappointed. At this moment, i found a new friend Justin either to accompany my singing life, so as my old pal Mark. That night, i make a vowed and promised to my grandma again "Your grandson will not disappoint you anymore, i'll start up my new studying life for my new course, i just need your last blessing to bring up the best hope and courage in me".

Everyday, i after my classes, i punished myself not to go anywhere or any entertainment, not to see my friends or even hang out with them, but only study and study everyday. Even in classes and library period, u may noticed i'm like a bookworm. Sometimes i even talk to those Grade 1 Students of my class, to learn more from them. Wonder where is Mark & Justin now?? They both are already in Form 6 (Year 6), and so as Justin's Twin-Brother Jason, are in a private Chinese High School, both in same class too, where they have to pay a little fees to be in private then the goverment High School which is much better. Since Mark, Justin & Jason didn't get Credits grade for their Bahasa Melayu (BM) subject (Malay language subject), then they're not allowed to be in the goverment high school for Year 6. There is 2 years of studies in Form 6 (Year 6), which has to finish Lower 6 then only Upper 6.

I'm still worried about my daily class tutorial exercises, although i manage to finished it in time, and i always be ready for the next exercises, always glance through it before the lecturer or instructor about to teach that following topic. Everyone knows i was the only guy who is very hard working, if to be justified, i would be the 2nd last student in the Mechanical & Manufacturing class, where my cousin is the last student but he doesn't mind much, in every class period, he would talked about cards and speakers upgrading things with those 4-5 useless students. Our assignments or any examination, we have grading criterias such as Distinction, Merit, Pass and Not Yet Pass (NYP). The requirements for grade of:

PASS-Student would have to complete ALL the Pass Section or Section 1 questions 98%-100% correctly. Student must not make any mistake in any questions OR else He or She will be given the grade NOT YET PASS (NYP)

MERIT-Student must be able to complete ALL the Pass Section questions 98%-100% correctly + Student also able to complete ALL the Merit Section questions 98%-100% correctly.

DISTINCTION-Student must be able to complete ALL the (Pass Section & Merit Section) questions 98%-100% correctly + Student also able to complete ALL the Distinction Section questions 98%-100% correctly.

Based on the 3 grading criterias above, even if student manage to complete ALL the Merit Section and Distinction Section 98-100% correctly, but is that student results in failing EVEN ONE QUESTION on the Pass Section, (for any Assignments or Exams), the student will be entitled to Not Yet Pass grade (NYP). That's very strict for BTEC engineering studies, that's why it ranks 3 hardest engineering course in the UK, since it's grading criteria that students will have to step-by-step complete Pass Section in order to move to the following section. It's systematic. Therefore, student will not have the chance to even pick which questions they like to answer. "Frankly speaking, like or don't like the questions, we also have to complete all the Pass Section first". No overall marks given in BTEC studies, unlike in previous high school or any other exams in other college that will entitle students to pick questions and results the correct answers in overall marking criteria.

For our first ever assignmet for Engineering Science A (First Semester-Foundation Year), i was awarded the Grade Merit and then i was happy, since i even failed my 3 Science subjects back in high school that's Physics, Biology & Chemistry. I got no knowledge on Physics. So i didn't expect to even get Merit grades for that assignment. In fact, other Grade 1 student in my class only got Pass grade for the assignment. From that spirit and courage that i achieved from my first ever assignment, i wanna put more effort to all coming assignments and exams. 

Well, on the first MELLINIUM for Year 2000, we have finally finished out studies in for the First Semester (6 months for each Semester) of Foundation Year. I was awarded with a CGPA of 3.325 that ranks me the 3rd place in my Mechanical & Manufacturing Engineering class, and ranks 30th/290th students for the entire BTEC engineering course. I was so happy after being awarded for my First Semester in PSDC, as I come back from and locked myself in my room, as I started to pray to my grandma and thank her for all her blessings, as I’ll still carry on this studies for my engineering till it’s finish. Me, Mark and Justin hang out again in One-Stop Shopping Complex (where it’s 3 minutes walk along the same street lane, it’s Coffee Hut is situated along Belissa Row and just opposite across the road it’s Orange Café, the 2 places we’ve worked before). Justin bought me a Christmas present of a Video CD (VCD) of Human Nature (Australian pop group), as I bought him back Millennium album of Backstreet Boys. Mark, bought me something, but I have forgotten, if not mistaken is a NIKE cap, but I truly forgotten what he bought for me. Justin and Mark exchanging TIE for Christmas present 1999, where Mark first bought Justin a Winnie-The-Pooh Bear Tie. A few days later, my parents decided to move to an apartment, that takes only 12 minutes drive from the old house we lived in. I wanna thank my neighbour also for giving me a luck for my studies when i entered PSDC, but she has left to another province or state in Malaysia doing her college studies. So i didn't manage to thank her even a week before she left, so i was not even being inform when she left for her studies in college, or even her parents woul inform me.We now lived in an aparment, it's at level 13, it's the second last level for the apartment, as the highest is level 14.